Saturday, September 17, 2005
Cycling. And boy was it good.
cocoa lee blogged on 12:49 AM
To spend or not to spend, that is the big fat question... red Cannondale R700 with XTR parts, jointly produced by volvo... chio...very chio... price tag also damn chio...1K....
How... why coudn't the price be like $700 or something...?
cocoa lee blogged on 6:32 AM
I hear thunder... the dark side of the force looms...
cocoa lee blogged on 11:37 AM
I want what you want. You just seem to believe that I'm not interested no matter what i say or do. You always have evidence in your memory that proves that i dun give a damn... well try searching your memory for the evidence that says otherwise and see what that brings up k?
I love you.
cocoa lee blogged on 11:46 PM
So i have the best game of mahjong i've ever played in my memory. Good hands, played the right cards and basically did not do anything too wrong against some rather seasoned players. Win a lot too... but in the end, i find myself miserable.
I think you need to know that when i say sorry many times, i mean it and you should stop pushing me to the edge like you did tonight. I apologized for not speaking up ab out ending the game after one round but i thought a half round was a fair compromise. Even then, i promised that it would not happen again.
I think about all the things you said, about not being awake when i am with you all the time just cos i fell asleep twice when i was at your place but did i not wake up and watch a whole episode of OC with you on your bed. Was i not awake when i sent you for rehearsals and rushed back and forth for my hair cut and then to pick you up?
Do i have to convince you and now myself that i care for you and that i still aim to please you? I hate doing that because it just makes it seem as though i'm calculating every little thing that i do. But you're forcing me to. I don't like to be accused of treating you as if you don't matter. You mean the world and i like to think that I treat you accordingly but somehow i get the feeling that its not enough.... So what then must i do?
I went for the gig tonight for you... was there just for your performance. I feel outta place with all the "arts" people rehearsing for gigs and all. You should know that, ever since i started keeping you company for your first arts bash till now. My scrunged-up face is not a reflection of my unhappiness at being there....it's simply a reflection of my uncomfortableness at being surrounded by "arts" people rehearsing for something i know that i can never do. So excuse me for feeling left out and out of place.
I'm tired... just want to sleep... Tomorrow will be a better day... hopefully
cocoa lee blogged on 3:26 PM
I simply can't... keep wasting time, getting distracted, taking ill-advised naps....why oh why am i so unmotivated?
I need YOUR encouragement and pushing... lead by example for me, will you?
cocoa lee blogged on 2:08 AM
Ok, 2 days till the FIM "test" (just call it an exam lah if you put it this late), and 3 days after it'll be the first paper...hooray! I haven't even even started studying anything. As they say in spanish....Nada....
Speaking of which, BSM Chile costs $3500?!?!?!? Goodness, that's quite a stretch i must admit... Oh well, i guess for the experience it'll be worth it... So how? You still keen? I wil try and figure a way to mix and mesh my subjects for exchange in that case... Hopefully i can find a GE to do overin germany to replace this GRS module.
How to catch up in time? I'm thinking that maybe i bit off more than i can chew this term by taking 3 socio modules at the same time.... the readings alone are gonna kill me....sigh. More sleepless nights ahead...
cocoa lee blogged on 9:19 PM
